January 7, 2012
This week, since chemo, has been uneventful. Keith is doing well but if he does crash tomorrow then we will know to expect this after every treatment. We are pretty optimistic though and hopeful his blood levels will not drop. He is, at present, watching a little television and resting in the process. We are living everyday with the knowledge that God is in control and that has truly made all the difference in the world. So keep up the prayers, we covet them.
I am feeling better about my situation, due to something that happened on Thursday, and I know it is because God was with me.
Psalms 35: 19-20
19 Do not let those gloat over me
who are my enemies without cause;
do not let those who hate me without reason
maliciously wink the eye.
20 They do not speak peaceably,
but devise false accusations
against those who live quietly in the land. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Basically, this is what I am dealing with, but God knows the truth and he will take care of the outcome. So, on to what is most important right now, seeing Keith through this cancer to a place of good health once again.
For a while I was very downcast, distraught, and hardly able to function but God has held me up through it all and I know he will see me through to the end.
10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
I am thankful to those in my family, who have been here for us and to our friends who have helped in so many ways. We are blessed to have you in our lives and appreciate each and everyone of you. It is easy to take each other for granted, in this fast paced world in which we live, but I pray that I have learned some valuable lessons about how to treat people. I've always tried to be good to others but I know there is more I can do and hopefully, I will.
Life is full of challenges and our job is to overcome them, hopefully, with dignity and grace. Anyone can grumble their way through life, I should know, I've grumbled my way through enough of it, but I'm hoping to go through the rest with the aforementioned dignity and grace. I believe God is using these latest trials to hone my skills in this area. There may be other reasons, also, and some day I may even find out what they are, but for now I will just forge ahead hoping to learn something valuable and useful, which will help me to live a more purposeful life for God.